Missed Opportunities

I am really frustrated with myself right now. I should be out running 7.5miles, instead I am sat in my PJs writing this. The past week has been a week of missed opportunities. For various reasons, which I won't go into, I haven't exercised since Tuesday and have eaten a lot of rubbish. At times like this you have to just draw a line under it and move on so this morning was meant to be the moving on bit but instead I hit snooze 6 times.

I think I feel particularly disappointed in myself as everyone else around me is doing so well. My brother is sticking to his training plan with gusto, and Teresa ran 8 miles yesterday. So for a start I feel like I'm letting both of them down. But now my fear of 'failure' is starting to creep in as well. I've always been quite harsh on myself and tend to measure my 'success' compared to other people or what I feel I 'should' be achieving. This is a state of mind that needs to be altered for sure. But I was actually quite nervous about potentially doing 7.5miles this morning. I know I physically I've done it before, but I haven't trained for a week. And what if I had to walk for a little bit? To me, that would have meant I'd failed. Which is completely wrong.

In reality we do need to start stepping it up now though. We've got just under 8 weeks until the half marathon but I go skiing 4 weeks Wednesday, during which time I won't be doing any running, just falling over. Then when I come back we've got a week of training before we'll do a longer run, then taper it down for a week until the half. So we need to step it up. And Teresa is doing her part so I need to step up to the plate.

So, the week ahead. I will have to go to the gym tonight now, grrr! But the longer I leave it before I get back to it, the more lazy I become! Tomorrow I am thinking of going to the running shop after work and getting some new trainers, then a gym class in the evening as there's no football to tempt me away from exercise. Wednesday I am having my gym review at last so then I'll get a new and exciting programme, probably have a little play there but, in essence, it'll be a rest day. Hopefully minus the mini eggs. Thursday, hmm, circuits and gym. Friday, running with Teresa.

Today is Teresa's last day at work before she moves onto pastures new. We're going to continue to aim to do one run together a week after our respective working days but the challenge for me now is to go it alone against the biscuits monsters at work and without my 'conscience' there to encourage me along the way. Bring it on!! :S